The final stage

Some dude pronounced my name wrong, I walked across a stage and four years of hard work and a lot of money came to an end. I graduated from college today. I almost don’t know what to do with myself but the idea of being done with school (hopefully) forever pretty much rocks.

So, my holding pattern of chaos has basically subsided. Thank God. I’m not sure I would have survived much longer. And in case you were ever wondering: completing two semester long projects, an internship, college, a week of dance tech and production, while working multiple jobs and get in a car wreck, have car troubles, and move in the middle of all of it, is enough to drive anyone insane. I would highly not recommend it. I’m exhausted after that month and a half whirlwind.

What happens next? Well, I have thrown a few things out there (launching balloons into the sky would be a good analogy) and I’m waiting to hear back about a few opportunities. Basically, I’m plotting my next steps, seeing what that means for my post college life, and figuring out what’s the best opportunity.

I’m staying in Nashville for now. I like it here. I’m trying not to limit myself at this point… I’m realizing that I pretty much have the world at my fingertips and could do whatever I want (within reason). I’m not exactly tied down to any one spot with the exception of a lease, friends and some adopted nashville family. Those exceptions are part of what make my home here, so for now, I’m here.

My view from college has been interesting to say the least. I enjoyed the social and professional experiences much more than I enjoyed the academic part of college. I’ve learned a lot about myself, and more about what I want from the life. So while these last four years have not been “the best four years of my life” as most people seem to think they are, I fully expect that the next four years of my life will be the best; full of life, experience, happiness and less insane scheduling.

To quote a poster that I bought last night, “the world belongs to the dreamers.”

Can’t stop

Last week, a friend of mine’s Facebook status read, “Never half ass two things. Whole ass one thing.” I laughed at that status and let him know that there was another option; “Whole ass two things, like me.” To which he replied, “That’s why you’re freaking awesome.”

Most days that’s why I think that I’m awesome. I’m awesome based on how busy my schedule can be or how much I can accomplish in a day. I’m defined by my ability to do.

Now I won’t deny that I’ve done this to myself. I have. When I sit around and think of all that I “have to do” or “should do” or look at my calendar or make a to-do list on my hand, I get overwhelmed but at the same time, I have intentions of doing it all. For some reason, I have myself convinced that I can actually do and be all things for all people. I’ve actually convinced myself that I can be Superwoman. I can work two jobs, intern, go to school, to rehearsal, have a social life, do my homework and still go to bed by 1am. Take it from the failed, it ain’t gonna happen.

So why have I done this to myself? Conditioning has a lot to do with it, it’s part of my personality but to an extent, I want to do it all.

When I got to college, I chose two related but totally separate entertainment careers to study. Music business and dance. One is the business of entertainment, the other, entertainment; however, there aren’t many intersections of the two. And since I love both and since I’m me, I decided to do the almost impossible, I’m pursuing two careers at once.

I’m “whole assing” two things. Of course I’m human so I can’t physically do both 100% all the time (though i certainly try). Most days, if one is 90% the other is 60% and I’d say I’m putting about 150% of me out there. Read: exhaustion.

I’m in therapy. I’ve got signs of senioritis but mostly I’m just trying to stay afloat so I can graduate, get through recital at the studio and figure out my next step. It’s like a holding pattern of chaos. I love what I’m doing, but I don’t like the duties and expectations of life, employment, and homework.

So while I wish it would stop tomorrow, I graduate from college in 45 days.

Spring Break 2k12

Life has been crazy. Graduation is 2 months out and I’m barely keeping a float. So I made the most obvious choice for my spring break…. I escaped town. I went to stay with my friend, Zach in LA for a few days.

I met my friend Zach freshman year at Belmont and he has since graduated and lives out in LA, Burbank to be exact. He’d encouraged me to come visit and this break was the perfect opportunity.

I got out to LA on Saturday night, after a long day of waiting at the airport and traveling. If I’d realized that the Continental and United systems would finally be merged that day, I would not have picked that day to travel.

Upon arriving in LA I noticed two things: 1. The traffic is as bad and crazy as everyone says it is and 2. There is advertising for TV shows and movies EVERYWHERE. It’s on billboards, bus stops, and all over buildings. Right away some of my favorite things were the weather, a breezy 65 degrees and all the bright city lights. I may have grown up a suburban girl, but for as long as I can remember I’ve loved city lights.

I also saw a large number of Chevron gas stations, those of you who know my family, know why this was such a big deal. I spent a good portion of our drives around town observing the differences in gas prices ($.25 difference depending on the part of town) and almost $.70 more than Nashville. I know Zach thought this was weird, but I am my father’s daughter and that’s what we talk about on the phone (no, really we do!)

During this trip there were several first’s for me. That was kinda the point of the trip though, to relax, have fun and experience new things. My first morning in LA, I ate my first fish taco and I liked it.

After tacos, we (Zach and I, unless otherwise noted) decided on our first excursion… Hiking up to the Hollywood sign. It’s been on my bucket list for a while and when I booked my trip, it was the one thing we had to do. The hike itself is more fun in theory but the end result is pretty awesome. For about 40 minutes you are walking mostly uphill and I hate hills, especially when you have to walk up them. It was also in the middle of the day and pretty warm (80 and Sunny). I was tired once we made it to the top, but the view of LA was pretty awesome.

That night we met up with my friend Ari, a friend from Belmont who is currently studying in LA, in West Hollywood. We explored the scene, made some new friends and laughed a lot.

Monday was probably my favorite day. We drove over to Venice beach and had lunch at the Sidewalk cafe. The food was good (I hope you’re noticing a pattern… I ate a lot of good food on this trip) and there were strange people, street musicians, and a beach to look at from the outdoor seating area. Venice beach itself was interesting; lots of street art, souvenir vendors, homeless people, and some body builders too.

After Venice Beach, we headed to Malibu. I was born in and lived in California for several years but I was never quite sold on it. Actually, I think I’ve pretty much hated it since I fell in love with Texas. My visit to Malibu was a game changer.

Malibu was sunny and mostly deserted. Zach made me climb over some large rocks while barefoot, much to my protest. The beach on the other side of the rocks had a whole 6 people on it. I put my toes in the ocean and took it all in. It was so beautiful and peaceful; the view, the ocean noise. I probably could have sat there all day.

That night we ventured over to Hollywood. Walked all the stars of famous people and ate at the strangest Chickfila EVER. It was walk-up order and drive through only. The only seating they had was outside. Yes, I am crazy about all things Chickfila. The one accomplishment of that dinner: I introduced Zach to Chickfila sauce.

My last full day in LA we went to IKEA, saw a movie, cooked dinner, went to the Griffith Observatory and to Barney’s Beanery.

Zach lives like 2 miles from downtown Burbank and IKEA. I made him walk through it, even though the words “let’s go shopping” made him cringe. He was impressed and said he will shop there again. Mission Accomplished. He took me on a “non-date” to see Chronicle. And no we’re not dating, and yes, he chose the movie. I tried to get him to see The Vow but that was unsuccessful.

We cooked my specialty: Pasta from a box, sauce from a jar, chicken from a bag, a pre-made salad and Texas toast. My (almost nonexistent) cooking skills are guy approved and he’s probably still enjoying leftovers. After dinner, we went to the Griffith Observatory. It was windy but beautiful. You can see the entire city in all its lit up splendor from that point.

Even later that night, we headed out to Barney’s Beanery, a local bar that has the best Mac ‘n cheese I’ve ever had. Seriously, it was the best $4.25 I ever spent, twice! Other than the Mac ‘n cheese, the atmosphere was fun and not too crowded (on a week night, I heard weekends are packed). During my second visit, there was karaoke and we made my friend Ari sing Nickelback. That’s always a good time.

My last day was sunny and I didn’t want to leave, mostly because I’d had a nice break and I knew what lay ahead on the other side of two plane rides. Regardless, I savored my last few hours of freedom. I had some of the best nutella, chocolate chip pancakes I’ve ever consumed at Bea Bea’s. If I were to write a review for the restaurant it would read, “yummy pancakes, huge portions. I came hungry and left happy.” If you’re ever in the area (Burbank), go get you some pancakes.

And of course the most logical last stop before the airport was the park! If you want to see a 24 and 21 year old act like they’re 5 again, take them to a park. I got to swing, one of my favorite playground activities and enjoy some California sunshine.

And that was my spring break. Sometimes I wish every day could be spring break, that’d be cool.

My favorite albums of 2011

In honor of the last day of 2011, I present to you, My 10 Favorite albums of 2011.

10. Cold War Kids’s Mine is Yours was an album recommended by my roommate, @JenMcmakin. Once I began using a music subscription (@Rdio) I had access to much more music and would listen to artists I might not normally be exposed to. This was one of the first ones I listened to on repeat.

Favorite Tracks: Mine is Yours, Royal Blue, Skip the Charades

9. Andy Grammer’s debut, self-titled album was a twitter recommendation via @Parachute and they did not lead me astray. The album is pop from start to finish and very enjoyable.

Favorite Tracks: Fine By Me, Miss Me, Ladies

8. Parachute’s sophomore album The Way It Was was a twitter recommendation I saw via @DaveBarnesMusic. Are you seeing a trend here? Promote your artist friends on twitter and if I like your music, I just might like your friends. I had heard “She Is Love” the single from a few years back but wasn’t too impressed. This album blew me away though. This alternative/ pop album is well written with strong melodies from start to finish.

Favorite Tracks: Forever and Always, You and Me, American Secrets

7. ADELE’s sophomore album 21  had everyone talking and voting and listening. I jumped on the bandwagon pretty early on and purchased this album.

Favorite Tracks: Set Fire to the Rain, Turning Tables, Someone Like You

6. Mat Kearney’s album Young Love was better than I expected it to be. I’ve been a Mat Kearney fan for upwards of 6 or 7 years and while I wasn’t too impressed with his previous album, I wore Young Love out. The songwriting and storytelling was well-done and the pop melodies catchy.

Favorite Tracks: Ships in the Night, Count on Me, Sooner or Later, Rochester

5. Lady Antebellum’s Own the Night was a country album I wasn’t expecting to enjoy. But for the most part, country and enjoy only happen in a sentence every once in a while for me. I used to “hate country” music even when I moved to Nashville but I’ve come around and even enjoy songs with heavy banjo and mandolin use. I got in a funk and wanted to listen to this album every day for 2 weeks and the album is just good, from start to finish.

Favorite Tracks: We Owned the Night, Dancin’ Away with My Heart, When You Were Mine

4. Hot Chelle Rae scored big on Top 40 radio with their two singles and when the album released late fall, I fell in love. I’m a sucker for a pop album with well-written lyrics and a catchy melody.

Favorite Tracks: I Like It Like That, Radio, Beautiful Freaks

3. The Civil Wars’ Barton Hollow. This album is great and it was nice to see them get recognition that is well deserved. The soft pop melodies contrast with the americana/country/folk sound and leave this duo virtually unclassifiable. But that might be just what I like about them. Listening to the album the whole way through is to be seduced by melodies, that’s really the best I can describe it.

Favorite Tracks: Poison and Wine, Barton Hollow, My Father’s Father

2. Switchfoot’s Vice Verses is my favorite release of theirs since The Beautiful Letdown. It was one of my most anticipated releases for 2011 and I enjoyed rocking out to this album in my car and at their live show.

Favorite Tracks: Thrive, Souvenirs, Where I Belong

1. NEEDTOBREATHE’s The Reckoning is a Southern rock album and falls right in place as a follow up to The Outsiders. This is the 4th album from my favorite band and a listening journey from beginning to end.

Favorite Tracks: Devil’s Been Talkin’, Able, Drive All Night

And to bring in the New Year, my most anticipated album of 2012 is for King & Country’s Crave and Reveal.

What were your favorite albums of 2011?

California adventure

I’m spending 11 days in California for Christmas and New Years. I’m 2 and some change days into the trip and it has been interesting to say the least. My immediate family hasn’t arrived yet so I’ve spent a lot of time with my ultra conservative, strong opinioned grandparents (grandmother) which is always an adventure.

I’m not around older people that much (seeing as I live 800 miles from the closest grandparent) and now I understand why they say old people are almost as bad as teen drivers… Maybe worse. We ran a red turn signal today.

As a general observation, California grocery stores apparently have beer, wine and liquor. Texas stores have beer and wine and Tennessee has only beer and laws about which days of the week you can buy liquor.

I also had in-n-out burger for the 2nd time ever. My friend Zach called a recount on my mixed feelings on the greatness of in-n-out and I will admit it’s the best fast food burger for the price I’ve had. Meaning, it’s more food and better taste for the same price as McDonald’s. The fries aren’t as good, in my opinion, as McDonald’s and when I saw a Chickfila across the street I ran. Which brings us to my next point.

Let the Internet world hold me accountable, I can’t move north, or west for that matter, because of their lack of sweet tea (and blinkers on the highway, but mostly the tea). Or if I do, I must first learn to make it myself.

Going to McDonald’s and not enjoying the super sugary sweet tea should be a sin. In California they only offer “iced tea,” which can’t be fixed with 6 packets of sugar dumped inside. I left in-n-out and ran across the street to Chickfila hoping that a southern restaurant might serve sweet tea, which they did. Thank God. The teenager who waited on me said she hadn’t had sweet tea before. The whole situation left me perplexed. The world is much better with sweet tea.

I may, technically, hail from California but at least i now reside in “God’s country” where sweet tea is a staple.

And thus completes my first collection of California adventures.

Proverbs 31 and all that jazz

I heard about the Proverbs 31 Movement a few weeks ago, the day that the Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show aired. That night saw a myriad of comments: From girls, “I’ll go to the gym now.” From boys, “I like some meat on her bones” or just “watching the VS Fashion Show” because we could all imply the rest. And lastly from my little brother, “I’d rather have a Proverbs 31 girl than a Victoria Secret model.” Now as a big sister, I’ll be the first to admit that I was pretty proud of him. I would hope with two sisters he would know how to treat a woman right, give her the respect she deserves and not objectify her.

For the few days following there was some buzz about this saying, “I’d rather have a Proverbs 31 girl than a Victoria Secret model” and just a few days ago this video was posted. My brother goes to Baylor, the same school as the guy who started the movement so I had heard about it. But when I saw someone I know from Tennessee who lives in Kentucky post about it, I knew the internet was at it again.  When I watched the video, it was at about 600 views. As I write this it is at 113k and  counting.

Obviously, it struck a chord with viewers. I’ve seen it on Pinterest, I’ve read responses on Reddit and there appears to be a growing audience. Some theologians are commenting and way too many “uppity” people of either extreme (for or against) have commented on YouTube so I’ll be honest, I haven’t read most of the other opinions. Mostly because YouTube comments make me want to punch someone in the face, but that’s another post for another time.

The thing is, a decently looking college freshman guy started the movement. For any “Christian” girl, that is an automatic swoon effect. But I think for the general female population from high school to moms, it is a guy saying exactly what we want to hear; “Ladies, we really do pay attention to more than just looks and we may come off as superficial assholes at times but really we want a girl of substance, not just a pretty face.”

To some, Proverbs 31 can seem outdated and irrelevant to the 21st Century. I don’t think girls are trying to portray that they want to slave away in the kitchen or be domestic (though some I know, do) by re-posting in support of that statement. I think they like the ideal of being respected for the women that they are and they like knowing that guys are looking for more than just a pretty face even in our self-gratification driven culture.

You know how us girls are though, we like to say one thing and do another. So here we are saying that we like this ideal; one of mutual respect, attraction and acceptance of who we are. But in reality our actions scream “I’m a piece of meat, come get me boys.” Ladies, a guy might be more willing to treat you with the respect you deserve and obviously are seeking if you actually chose to put some clothes on. They might look at us for what we’re really worth instead of an object that can be used if we didn’t throw ourselves at every willing guy who walked our way. So perhaps learn a thing or two from characteristics of the woman of Proverbs 31… not just the external to do list.

The fact of the matter is this. Girls like this statement because it makes them feel good about themselves and it makes them feel empowered. The truth of the matter is unless us girls change our ways, we can’t expect our prince charming or in this case “a guy who is looking for a Proverbs 31 woman and not a Victoria’s Secret model” to come chasing after us.

And to all the VS models that were parading around in panties… do us all a favor and eat a sandwich.

No expectations

This is a month long challenge of lists. Why lists? Because I believe you can learn a lot about people from a list and my life operates off of them.

A list of relaxing activities :

Reading a book
Floating around in a pool
Walking without a destination
Listening to music with no agenda
Dancing in a dark room for no one but myself
A meal and conversation with friends

I spend much of my time operating under my own or other’s expectations that I forget how to enjoy life. But when I remember, these are my favorite activities.

What activities do you find relaxing?

Music Monday- Fall concerts

This is a month long challenge of lists. Why lists? I believe you can learn a lot about people through lists and in my life I operate off of lists.

It seems every fall I manage to catch a lot of shows as they stop in Nashville and this Fall has been no different. In fact, in a 2 week time span, I went to 7 concerts. Here’s a list of who I’ve seen this fall.

September-

Los Lonely Boys @ Live on the Green, Nashville
NEEDTOBREATHE + Taylor Swift @ Bridgestone Arena
NEEDTOBREATHE secret show @ 12th & Porter
Foster the People – Soundland @ 12th & Porter (outdoors)
Ravenhill @ The Rutledge
Young the Giant @ Exit/In
Mortal Rising @ The Rutledge

October-

LEAGUES + Mat Kearney @ Cannery Ballroom
High Valley @ The Rutledge

November-

Jon Foreman + Seryn @ Trevecca Nazarene University

 

And right as I said I was all concert-ed out, Switchfoot announced a Nashville show. And since they are at the top of my “bands I’ve never seen and really want to” list, I bought tickets.

What concerts have you attended this fall?

Thoughts for the day

Thoughts for the day:

I love dancing but sometimes I’m just not in the mood.

Sharideth is cool.

I still don’t like the cold.

Am I the only one who noticed the awesome quote about Justin Beiber on the front of Billboard?
     “Vocally, his balls have dropped.”

Carlos (my car) has a new, shiny rear end. Sometimes you have to learn not to back into mailboxes the hard way.

That’s all I got. Have a good weekend!